new sem

first week is always boring
no assignments, no tutorials
even dunno what to do after classes

bored inside hostel. lol

bored until I look at my computer

and my computer look at me as well. lol

yet still have to experience this for 2 and a half year more .__.



but I hate this new beginning this time (T^T)

cause somehow i got some red spots around my neck

and also infection on my left eye

have to "carry" them to uni *sob sob*

ugly beginning

*cries*

不想。。。

娃并没有你们想象中坚强

没有你们想象中那么开朗

也没有你们想象中那么可爱

更没有你们认识的娃那么好。。

娃心中 总是充满了恐惧、黑暗

一个人的夜晚 更不是你们想到的低沉

脑中所想的 都不是好的东西

都是消极、黑暗的。。。

黑夜里 一个人 就会不自禁想了很多事情

想着

为什么会连朋友都吃醋 导致以前和那位最好的朋友闹翻

为什么每次交朋友都不超过半年 一个长久的朋友也没有

为什么当时会遇见你们 为什么会遇见那些人

遇见了 为什么又要分开。。

为什么要去那些不认识的地方生活 为什么要戴着面具面对他们

那样很麻烦 很累

虚伪的笑容 虚伪的亲密 虚伪的人心 虚伪的人格

讨厌

说话直 会被讨厌 会被攻击 会被杯葛

我宁愿不说话

为什么要把我生下来 为什么我会被赐予生命

我生存的目的是什么 我是为了什么而活

为什么总是那么多考验等着我

那么多阻碍、障碍 我很累。。

为什么要有生命 有了生命就会有死亡 为什么要有死亡

死亡后会怎样看不到你们 不能和你们说话

没有感觉、没有触觉、没有呼吸、什么也没有

黑暗、冷漠、不安、恐惧、空虚感

这一切 都在我心里住着

心 会一直在抽、在痛

就像是一把刀 一划一划的 割下去 很痛。。

单是鼓励 安慰 并不能让我开朗

也没有任何方法可以让我的黑暗消失 我很清楚知道

可是我并不想你们担心 至少我可以答应你们

我不会做什么傻事

对 我是一个娃娃 陶瓷娃娃 玻璃娃娃

但不是塑胶娃娃

跌下来 会破碎。。 就算粘回去 裂缝还是在

我的生存目的 我的梦想 到底是什么

我到现在还没找到 那种感觉 很空。。 很寂寞 悲伤

心痛了 眼泪流下来了。。

Grrrrrrrr.....

oTL

today was just oTL

went to International Beauty Expo at KL Convention Centre with Kamyu this afternoon

dissapointed

it's not as much cosmetic this year compare to last year

most of them were BB cream and masks

lol

but the oTL part is not this

we walked here and there and saw a stall selling Koji's fakelashes

(here comes the oTL part)

both of us were looking at the fakelashes by Tsubasa Masuwaka

brand name Dolly Wink

one of the visitor asked the promoter

"is this real furr or artificial lashes?" "oh, those are artificial's, " answer the promoter

WHAT THE HELL????

Dolly Wink are all made by real furrrrrr~~~~ and hand-made~~~~~

else why they are selling so high price??

don't you know that Miss Promoter???

you don't know it and you are selling it???? and yet answered like so sure about it??

oTL *faints* and yea, *facepalm*

both of me and Kamyu look at each other and walked away

lol

then we ended up without buying anything

went for Burger King and went home. lol

this year's beauty expo ishh dissapointing~

wonder would i go again next year =.=

鴉（カラス）- 己龍

『鴉』

作詞･作曲 酒井参輝


這いずり回る餌に滴る津液の雨

救われていると信じ、巣食われていると気付かない


笑え笑えやケタケタ…カラカラ…

騒げ騒げや嘆かわしい…

ほろりほろりに口元が緩む


「人の不幸は密の味」


暁に落ちていった人の心一滴

苦し紛れの自制の裏側に染み渡る

嘘に魅入られた喉は吐き出す全てを濁し

忌み嫌われる姿は現の欲の如し


笑え笑えやケタケタ…カラカラ…

騒げ騒げや嘆かわしい…

ほろりほろりに口元が緩む


「人の不幸は密の味」


暁に落ちていった人の心一滴

苦し紛れの自制の裏側に染み渡る

嘘に魅入られた喉は吐き出す全てを濁し

忌み嫌われる姿は現の欲の如し


隠した翼を広げ偽りの衣裾を剥いだ

恍惚に酔う姿は現の誠と為る

MLC May Outing

Location: Chocolate Lounge, Bangsar Village I

Date: 15 May 2010

=Group Picture=

Wee~~~

my second lolita gathering/outing with MLC's girls

this time much more loli girls attend (,,/^v^,,)/

everyone was so cute and charming♥

and yes, my "master" came along also♫♫

it's my 1st outing in lolita with her

I'm really happy of this♫


and, I hate the taxi driver who fetch us to the location (T^T)

he's damn annoying

cut what he said. lol



met new friends that day^^

we had a very "oily" lunch. lol

olive oil spaghetti. shouldn't have ordered that =(

but after that ordered another choco fruit festival♥

and the drinks is nice♥ chocolate, of course♥

=NaNa and Me=

I've met Kyelin who I had met her before in our Uni


but I'm 1 sem older than her so we didn't see each other after my foundation graduation


it's nice to see her again^^


we had games after meal, word crossing


arrrgh, I know only a few answers *sad sad*

I need "tuition", seriously D=

after that was word guessing, that was not bad

my group won the game and got mashmallows as present♥

after games, everyone was taking pics

it's really fun


we had lots of pose: oTL, facepalms, backsides, huggies, loves, etc.

=oTL lolitas=

=Went to Bisou for these cute cupcakes=

I really enjoy outings with loli girls♥

it's fun, no pressure, not crowded malls


everyone is cute, nice, passion

I hope I can join more outings with lolis


yea, I'm sure I can and I will^^


Thanks Aiko and Nana for organizing and preparing the outing♫

And for all who attend the gathering, nice to meet you girls

it's really nice to meet you all

hope to see you all again next time♫♫

=Organizers: Aiko and NaNa=

I am home...

Yeahhh

today is the final day of my exam

and also final day for my semester

and the first day of my sembreak

so happy (,,//^▽^,,)//

slept on the journey back to KL

lol

mom's cook

my bed, my room

awww♥♥

I miss them so much♥

next

gonna get ready for this saturday's gathering =3

wait for me ♬

I'm coming ♬♬

lol =D

My Loli List(?)

I am a newbie to Loli
yet a poor one
lol
so i don't have much items currently
what do i have?
hmm,,, really less
i think my assets of lolita does not exceeds MYR1000
yea, i think it is



my list:
1. Bodyline OP dress
2. Bodyline headress
3. A pair of loli shoes- Offbrand
4. Offbrand Socks
5. S-brand(i don't wanna mention that name) cupcakes print skirt
6. S-brand Headdress
7. er, what else? do i have more than that?


LOL

my list is really short
I WANNA EXPAND MY LISSSSSST
but the problem is always money @_@
list to buy is much more longer than what i have now
*dies


really hope that the list will grow longer this year
but at the same time
my wallet will shrink O_O
LOL

The only set i have =.=

finally...

oh yeah

it had come finally

my last subject of this semester final exam

and will say goodbye to my hostel

off to sembreak

and yes of course

back to my home (,,^▽^,,)//

so excited about it now

lol

also, the gathering is waiting for me

haha

gonna see all lolitas who i have never see before

and also those who i have met before

oh my final subject

yes, wait for me

i'm coming to kill "you"

lol xD