Rorii

Yea!! my wallet being killed by rorii again ＼（○＾ω＾○）／

<-- =.= (is this a fact to be happy of? lol.) 

although didn't manage to get the bunny JSK in red

(my first choice)

but manage to get another red JSK (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ

yea...I'm crazy for RED stuffs（★￣∀￣★）

while waiting for the new JSK and accessories

I'd sold off my very first Bodyline OP set

(bye my dear T.T .lol)

sold to my "prince" (*´∀｀*)

well, she called me ohime-sama and in return I called her my prince

hahaha <3

and one more thing

my socks arrived!!!! ☆^(o≧∀≦)o

from secret shop

yea~ no more shopping after this (T_________T)

gonna broke........*sigh*

Home Sweet Home

Woooaah~!!
Finally finished all the assignments, presentations and midterm examsヽ(゜∀゜)メ(゜∀゜)メ(゜∀゜)ノ
can relax a bit before final exam comes~~~
can watch drama, anime, play games....etc etc (LOL)
and yeshh of course!! have free time to go home on weekends ヾ(≧ー≦)ゞ


gotta go shopping around KL area
find a cloth to match with my skirt for the coming gathering
yea~~ we're going to have a gathering next week!!! ＼(≧▽≦)／
it had been a long time since I join the previous gathering
(2 months actually XD)


hmmm, an offbrand outing with budget limit of RM200
it's a difficult task for a person who don't know sewing like me. lol
being told by a friend, why not casual lolita?
*o* why I didn't thought about this...? oTL
but it wasn't a simple task also
I'm a newbie, still not good in coordination ad indentifying loli-liked stuffs
thus I need more research (T^T)


anyway, its glad to be home =)
and I'm quite sorry to my parents
as I didn't went home even once during this semester
and I know, their concerns, and they wanna see me
but I have too many midterm exams this semester that it used up almost every weekends
I promise I'll be back whenever I have free time ヾ(￣ー￣ヾ))

the day my life turns

712... July 12 2008
if and only if a year does not consist of this date
I won't be who I am today
a Lolita, a Harajuku lover, a Jrock music lover
an online-shopper(LOL?), a more optismic girl, a girl with bunch of friends
(yea...I used to be alone when I was in secondary school and 1st year of my Uni life)
It all thanks to a person, a girl, my master, Kamyu
you changed my life, my world...

Do u still remember the 1st time we talk to each other?
I do remember it well...
it was in FS, when I was still an ita
was trying to attempt Lolita
and u kindly point out that my outfit wasn't a Loli outfit

you'd chat with me and we chat about Bon Odori 2008
I said I was alone and don't wanna go
you said I can join you and your friends
and I'd met Aiko and Cathryn on that day too
I was so surprised, why is this stranger inviting me out? haha...
but luckily I went to meet you, I'm glad I did

the first impression you gave me is that you are a very passion girl
you're very kind, helpful, concerning people
and yes you are =)

the 2nd time we met is that you invited me to join your Visual-kei friends gathering
I have no Loli and you lend yours to me, even at the end you gave it to me
and I was thinking whats wrong with this girl for giving a so expensive clothes to a stranger
no, it's nothing wrong, you're just a too kind person. LOL

and because of this gathering, I had more and more friends
my life had become even more colorful
I'm not like the one I was last time
a quiet girl, no friends, depressed girl, no outing girl
and the most important, you breaked the "curse"
a "not longer than half-year friendship curse" I called it
we'd been friends for 2 years until now!

I know I'm a crybaby, troublesome(quite) "pet"
but you've accepted all my good and bads
I wanna say hundreds and thousands of thankyou to you
I wish upon the sky, let us remain friends forever and ever....

Never Had A Dream Come True

A song from long time ago. But i love it^^


Never Had a Dream Come True


Artist: S Club 7


Oooh-oooh


Everybody's got something


They had to leave behind


One regret from yesterday


That just seems to grow with time



There's no use looking back or wondering



(Or wondering)



How it could be now or might have been



(Or might have been)



All this I know but still I can't find ways



To let you go









I never had a dream come true



'Til the day that I found you



Even though I pretend that I've moved on



You'll always be my baby



I never found the words to say



You're the one I think about each day



And I know no matter where life takes me to



A part of me will always be with you, yeah









Somewhere in my memory



I've lost all sense of time (ah-ha, ha-ha)



And tommorow can never be



'Cos yesterday is all that fills my mind



There's no use looking back or wondering



(Wondering)



How it should be now or might have been



(Or might have been)



All this I know but still I can't find ways



To let you go









I never had a dream come true



'Til the day that I found you



Even though I pretend that I've moved on



You'll always be my baby



I never found the words to say



You're the one I think about each day



And I know no matter where life takes me to



A part of me will always be



You'll always be the dream that fills my head



Yes you will, say you will



You know you will, oh baby



You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget



It's no use looking back or wondering



(Or wondering)



Because love is a strange and funny thing



(And funny thing)



No matter how I try and try



I just can't say goodbye, no, no, no, no









I never had a dream come true



'Til the day that I found you



Even though I pretend that I've moved on



You'll always be my baby



I never found the words



(Never found the words to say) to say



You're the one I think about each day (each day)



And I know no matter where life takes me to



A part of me will always be



A part of me will always be with you, ooh

EDIT EDIT!!!

photo editing software is so convinience nowadays （)´д`(）

simple to use (well, simple to download as well) xP

and, most important(?) it can make you a SUPER pretty girl/ handsome boy



no matter whether you are fat/crooked nose/dark skin/moon-surfaced-skin

you still can become a perfect pretty girl/boy ヽ(゜∀゜)メ(゜∀゜)メ(゜∀゜)ノ

by~~~ yea... photo editing software!

say BANZAI to PS, MT, and etc etc ＼(≧▽≦)／＼(≧▽≦)／



well, I admit~ I do editings too.

but most of the time I edit on lightings only

and most probably add my signature on it (。>ω<。)

turn myself more perfect? no thanks I would say.

I'm not willing to turn myself into a cartoon/plastic-surgery-like (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ



but sometimes, I did some extras on it too (*｀▽´*)

adding shinny stuffs, changing background, lomo-fying, etc.

but nope♪ no editings on my eyes, nose, body shape,skin ♪

(my skin condition wasn't "revealed" bcoz my hp's resolution wasn't tht good)



Example of editing? here goes you:

*Before editing*

*After*

yea yea~ it looks totally different right? the feel of the photo?

it makes me "look" prettier by just adding the shinny stuffs and editing the background

interesting huh? nope, this is not interesting enough ψ(｀∇´)ψ

wanna see more epic ones?

tell me, I give ya the link *evilishh*

nyahaha ψ(｀∇´)ψ LOL

blogging

*laziness wins*

I am lazy... yes I am =.=


promised myself to write my blog like I write a diary

an everyday task

yea... and I failed to do that (´･ω･`)

lol



but nothing happened

what to write about??? ﾊｧ━(-д-；)━ｧ...

(it somehow makes me think of my diary when I was a kid)

all that I wrote are the same(っ´ω｀c)

eg. today i go to school and i do homework and i come home and i watch tv and i play computer and i eat lunch and i.........and i........

erm, yea, I know...

its full of "and I" bla bla bla...oTL

but I think that's what a kid would have written isn't it?＼(≧▽≦)


ah... I hope my mom haven't throw it away (-_-z))....

feel like wanna keep it like my precious. LOL

new sem

first week is always boring
no assignments, no tutorials
even dunno what to do after classes

bored inside hostel. lol

bored until I look at my computer

and my computer look at me as well. lol

yet still have to experience this for 2 and a half year more .__.



but I hate this new beginning this time (T^T)

cause somehow i got some red spots around my neck

and also infection on my left eye

have to "carry" them to uni *sob sob*

ugly beginning

*cries*

不想。。。

娃并没有你们想象中坚强

没有你们想象中那么开朗

也没有你们想象中那么可爱

更没有你们认识的娃那么好。。

娃心中 总是充满了恐惧、黑暗

一个人的夜晚 更不是你们想到的低沉

脑中所想的 都不是好的东西

都是消极、黑暗的。。。

黑夜里 一个人 就会不自禁想了很多事情

想着

为什么会连朋友都吃醋 导致以前和那位最好的朋友闹翻

为什么每次交朋友都不超过半年 一个长久的朋友也没有

为什么当时会遇见你们 为什么会遇见那些人

遇见了 为什么又要分开。。

为什么要去那些不认识的地方生活 为什么要戴着面具面对他们

那样很麻烦 很累

虚伪的笑容 虚伪的亲密 虚伪的人心 虚伪的人格

讨厌

说话直 会被讨厌 会被攻击 会被杯葛

我宁愿不说话

为什么要把我生下来 为什么我会被赐予生命

我生存的目的是什么 我是为了什么而活

为什么总是那么多考验等着我

那么多阻碍、障碍 我很累。。

为什么要有生命 有了生命就会有死亡 为什么要有死亡

死亡后会怎样看不到你们 不能和你们说话

没有感觉、没有触觉、没有呼吸、什么也没有

黑暗、冷漠、不安、恐惧、空虚感

这一切 都在我心里住着

心 会一直在抽、在痛

就像是一把刀 一划一划的 割下去 很痛。。

单是鼓励 安慰 并不能让我开朗

也没有任何方法可以让我的黑暗消失 我很清楚知道

可是我并不想你们担心 至少我可以答应你们

我不会做什么傻事

对 我是一个娃娃 陶瓷娃娃 玻璃娃娃

但不是塑胶娃娃

跌下来 会破碎。。 就算粘回去 裂缝还是在

我的生存目的 我的梦想 到底是什么

我到现在还没找到 那种感觉 很空。。 很寂寞 悲伤

心痛了 眼泪流下来了。。

Grrrrrrrr.....

oTL

today was just oTL

went to International Beauty Expo at KL Convention Centre with Kamyu this afternoon

dissapointed

it's not as much cosmetic this year compare to last year

most of them were BB cream and masks

lol

but the oTL part is not this

we walked here and there and saw a stall selling Koji's fakelashes

(here comes the oTL part)

both of us were looking at the fakelashes by Tsubasa Masuwaka

brand name Dolly Wink

one of the visitor asked the promoter

"is this real furr or artificial lashes?" "oh, those are artificial's, " answer the promoter

WHAT THE HELL????

Dolly Wink are all made by real furrrrrr~~~~ and hand-made~~~~~

else why they are selling so high price??

don't you know that Miss Promoter???

you don't know it and you are selling it???? and yet answered like so sure about it??

oTL *faints* and yea, *facepalm*

both of me and Kamyu look at each other and walked away

lol

then we ended up without buying anything

went for Burger King and went home. lol

this year's beauty expo ishh dissapointing~

wonder would i go again next year =.=

鴉（カラス）- 己龍

『鴉』

作詞･作曲 酒井参輝


這いずり回る餌に滴る津液の雨

救われていると信じ、巣食われていると気付かない


笑え笑えやケタケタ…カラカラ…

騒げ騒げや嘆かわしい…

ほろりほろりに口元が緩む


「人の不幸は密の味」


暁に落ちていった人の心一滴

苦し紛れの自制の裏側に染み渡る

嘘に魅入られた喉は吐き出す全てを濁し

忌み嫌われる姿は現の欲の如し


笑え笑えやケタケタ…カラカラ…

騒げ騒げや嘆かわしい…

ほろりほろりに口元が緩む


「人の不幸は密の味」


暁に落ちていった人の心一滴

苦し紛れの自制の裏側に染み渡る

嘘に魅入られた喉は吐き出す全てを濁し

忌み嫌われる姿は現の欲の如し


隠した翼を広げ偽りの衣裾を剥いだ

恍惚に酔う姿は現の誠と為る

MLC May Outing

Location: Chocolate Lounge, Bangsar Village I

Date: 15 May 2010

=Group Picture=

Wee~~~

my second lolita gathering/outing with MLC's girls

this time much more loli girls attend (,,/^v^,,)/

everyone was so cute and charming♥

and yes, my "master" came along also♫♫

it's my 1st outing in lolita with her

I'm really happy of this♫


and, I hate the taxi driver who fetch us to the location (T^T)

he's damn annoying

cut what he said. lol



met new friends that day^^

we had a very "oily" lunch. lol

olive oil spaghetti. shouldn't have ordered that =(

but after that ordered another choco fruit festival♥

and the drinks is nice♥ chocolate, of course♥

=NaNa and Me=

I've met Kyelin who I had met her before in our Uni


but I'm 1 sem older than her so we didn't see each other after my foundation graduation


it's nice to see her again^^


we had games after meal, word crossing


arrrgh, I know only a few answers *sad sad*

I need "tuition", seriously D=

after that was word guessing, that was not bad

my group won the game and got mashmallows as present♥

after games, everyone was taking pics

it's really fun


we had lots of pose: oTL, facepalms, backsides, huggies, loves, etc.

=oTL lolitas=

=Went to Bisou for these cute cupcakes=

I really enjoy outings with loli girls♥

it's fun, no pressure, not crowded malls


everyone is cute, nice, passion

I hope I can join more outings with lolis


yea, I'm sure I can and I will^^


Thanks Aiko and Nana for organizing and preparing the outing♫

And for all who attend the gathering, nice to meet you girls

it's really nice to meet you all

hope to see you all again next time♫♫

=Organizers: Aiko and NaNa=

I am home...

Yeahhh

today is the final day of my exam

and also final day for my semester

and the first day of my sembreak

so happy (,,//^▽^,,)//

slept on the journey back to KL

lol

mom's cook

my bed, my room

awww♥♥

I miss them so much♥

next

gonna get ready for this saturday's gathering =3

wait for me ♬

I'm coming ♬♬

lol =D

My Loli List(?)

I am a newbie to Loli
yet a poor one
lol
so i don't have much items currently
what do i have?
hmm,,, really less
i think my assets of lolita does not exceeds MYR1000
yea, i think it is



my list:
1. Bodyline OP dress
2. Bodyline headress
3. A pair of loli shoes- Offbrand
4. Offbrand Socks
5. S-brand(i don't wanna mention that name) cupcakes print skirt
6. S-brand Headdress
7. er, what else? do i have more than that?


LOL

my list is really short
I WANNA EXPAND MY LISSSSSST
but the problem is always money @_@
list to buy is much more longer than what i have now
*dies


really hope that the list will grow longer this year
but at the same time
my wallet will shrink O_O
LOL

The only set i have =.=

finally...

oh yeah

it had come finally

my last subject of this semester final exam

and will say goodbye to my hostel

off to sembreak

and yes of course

back to my home (,,^▽^,,)//

so excited about it now

lol

also, the gathering is waiting for me

haha

gonna see all lolitas who i have never see before

and also those who i have met before

oh my final subject

yes, wait for me

i'm coming to kill "you"

lol xD